数ヶ月ぶりに、やっと会えた里子のかりんちゃん。会わない間にぐっと大きくなったかりんちゃん。夢にまでみたかりんちゃん…
きっかけはささいなことだった。
私たちといるとあんなに楽しそうだったかりんちゃんの様子がだんだんおかしくなった。
心あたりはあった。
施設の考えと私たち夫婦の考えに違いがあった。新米里親として、施設職員の指導には最大限従うつもりの私たちだったけど、だんだんと違和感が生じた。かりんちゃんの心に影響があることだったから黙っているわけにはいかないと思った。
誠意を込めてお話ししたつもりだったが、残念なことに耳を貸してはもらえず…それきり、会うことができなくなった。
私たちは、里親として失格者とみなされたのかもしれない。
私たち夫婦とかりんちゃんの間にはたくさんの関係者が入る。自分の力の及ばないところで絶たれたり、つながれたりする絆。
かりんちゃんは何度こんな想いをしているのだろう。
私たち夫婦はどうするべきだったのだろう。
これからどうなっていくのだろう。
We could finally meet Karin-chan half way through the summer holidays season. To our eyes, she has grown amazingly ! I must confess I
dreamed of meeting her much sooner.
How it started out? It must have caused by a trivial thing, but I noticed she gradually acted strange although she has had happily
enjoyed herself being with us before.
To tell you the truth, I somehow had some thought in mind about this cause. There was a concept gap between the infant-facility and us (as a
couple/foster-parents). Though we, as a novice in foster-parenting, were ready to open to any guidance by the facility as much as we could, we, however, soon started feeling
awkward and uncomfortable. We thought we shouldn't be silent about this as we believe this might certainly affect over Karin-chan's future mindset.
We tried to make our messages sincerely through to the infant-facility, but sadly enough, it seems they didn't have room to
listen to what we truly meant in this matter. We kind of mutilated our dialogue for now since then. We may have been disqualitfied as the foster-parents.
There are many group of people involved on top of our own relationship with Karin-chan. KIzuna (a strong relationship) is
sometime cut off, which we can't do much about it, and then is mended again.
I wonder how many times Karin-chan had to go through such feelings.
I wonder what we, as a foster-parenting couple, should have tackled with this situation.
I wonder how our Kizuna (a strong relationship) with Karin-chan would become of........
